Behaviors Aren't Genetic

I saw short video about a woman who noticed fear rising up in her little boy and escaping from his lips. He was saying things like "I can't" and "I'm afraid". She asked her little boy who told him he couldn't and what made him think he was afraid. The Lord showed her that those things were something he learned from her and if she didn't do anything about it, fear would continue to take over her and her family.

Why I Feared Fun

Yesterday I wrote about my complex trip to Galveston "Was God in Galveston"; sharing my heart about how my anticipation was replaced with sorrow and the insight that the Lord was still there delighting in me. Today, as my husband and I sat discussing what the Lord is about to do in our lives, the topic of fun was once again brought up. To be specific, we were talking about how the Lord gave us passions first and foremost for our own enjoyment, and that ministry is always second. As my husband continued to encourage me by affirming the Lord WANTS us to enjoy our passions, a HUGE light bulb went off in my head...the ROOT issue in why I wasn't able to have "fun" at the ocean...

Was God in Galveston?

Over the span of the last 19 months of my journey with the Lord, after I finally gave up trying to do things my way and the world’s way, I have had three goals; for my heart to be made whole, for my soul to prosper, and to be steadfast in knowing that Jesus Christ would never leave me or forsake me. Up until that point of surrender, everything was simply head knowledge…but that has never been enough for me. I didn’t want to just know about Jesus; I wanted to KNOW the Lord! I wanted deeper awareness and a level of intimacy that only He can fill; one we were all created to desire. I wanted a heart to heart, emotional connection. Sadly, because my emotions controlled me for over 35 years, this process of healing and growth had me feeling like a tossed salad; to the point where I didn’t know what to feel or when.