I’m making myself vulnerable by discussing my mother’s death. I
realize this is a sensitive topic for some, including myself, but it’s
important that I share what the Lord has revealed to me. I am not the first
person to ask the question, “Why do bad things happen to good people?” Since being
married to a prophet of God, my faith has grown tremendously, all glory to my
Lord Jesus Christ! I've learned a LOT about God’s love, I've been established
in his gospel of grace, and learned a whole lot about Satan’s sneaky tactics. For
a long time, one of the biggest questions I had was, “Why did God allow my mom
to die?” My mom was a born again Christian, killed about 13 years ago. To make
a very long story short, while in the hospital, on her way to recovery, the
nurse on staff gave her the wrong drug. For several, it was easy to blame God,
even those who didn't believe in him. We were all hurting with the same
question, “why?”…
When bad things happen, especially to believers, is it because of sin
and/or disobedience? I recently confronted this looming question with my
mother’s passing. I trailed it back from the doctor who gave her the wrong drug;
that wasn't my mom’s choice or her sin. In fact, she was in a coma, unable to
make decisions. However, the reason she was in the hospital was because she
chose not to wear her helmet on a motorcycle ride. But it wasn't her fault that
the driver decided to show off, which landed them in the hospital to begin
with. Yet it was her choice to re-marry a non-believer. With the long string of
details and trying to find out who was really to blame, I couldn't handle the
possibility that my mom died because of her own sin or because she disobeyed. It
also didn't make sense to me that it had anything to do with her because
someone else killed her. The Lord revealed to me the truth about what happened.
Satan’s ultimate plan is to “take you out”; he wants you dead,
especially if you’re a believer! He doesn't want you telling people about
Jesus, or loving them, and HE DOESN'T WANT YOU TO BE FREE YOURSELF! The Lord
tells us, gives us insight and premonitions, he lets us know when we’re facing
danger. He loves us so much that in his ALL knowing power, knowing what’s about
to happen, he warns us to give us a chance to avoid it, but he won’t force us
(I talk about this in “Don’t Play on the Monkey Bars"). He gave us the ability to choose for a reason; it is our
choice to decide if we will allow him to help us. Your relationship with the
Lord is the same as with your spouse; He wants you to love him because you want
to and you trust him, not because he forced you to.
In my mom’s case, the Lord revealed to me that he did tell her
multiple times about the danger that lied ahead. The Lord knew what Satan had planned for her and he
loved her so much that he warned her; he desperately wanted her to listen and trust him. My mom had cried out to the Lord for help because she felt like something was wrong. The Lord answered her prayers and the evidence of his warnings…were in her journals. Prior to the accident, her journal entries
began being filled with fear. Each day held more terror, as she expressed her feelings that something really bad was about to happen. Every entry more intense, she kept saying she was
scared, that she couldn't explain what she was feeling but she knew something awful was about to happen and she didn't know what to do. Sadly, towards the end of her writings, it was as if she had resigned to the fact that danger was her fate. What the Lord gave her…were
premonitions, strong ones. Her daddy in heaven knew what Satan had planned
at the hospital. He knew that my mom would end up there if she went on that
bike ride. She cried out to the Lord to help her and he did, he gave her those
feelings that she talked about in her journals, but instead of listening to him
and getting out quickly, she decided to stay. I don’t know everything about
what my mom was going through during that time. All I know is at that
moment, instead of heeding the warning, she embraced the spirit of fear and let it control her.
Obeying the Lord simply means believing in him; trusting him and
stepping out in faith when you hear him speak. There is no right or wrong decision when you are trusting the Lord; decisions aren't right or wrong based on content or outcome. The Lord cares more about you trusting him, than the actual decision you're faced with. To the logical mind, good things happen to
good people and bad things happen to bad people, but that’s not grace. Grace
gives anyone who will receive it, good things. Trust him. Don’t let the spirit
of fear take over, in Jesus Name!
